it's people like you that make the world go 'round

monday cuddles with this bear

and just like that, my bad mood is no more. turns out going shopping really does help with "s.a.d" and i encourage all of you to brave the shops now because town wasn't as apocalyptic as it's been over the past few days (granted i've just been for two hours in 1 degree heat at 5pm but that's by the by). there were a few lovely things that happened during my session today which i want to share with you because it might instil you with some faith in the world. if you already have faith, what are you doing on this blog???!!?!

in the mall thuggin', buggin', spent a few hundred

post sales meltdown SO MUCH CHEEK

silly me thinking that the world would've calmed down after christmas and boxing day. i thought i would brave the outside world and have a quiet, casual look at what deals were on offer in the shops to buy with my christmas money (because i have around 18p in my account so online shopping i.e MY FAVOURITE MIND was out of the question). as it turns out, i ended up cowering in boots' feminine care aisle for fear of being trampled and killed. but that's by the by, i still bought shit of course. 

santa claus is coming to town

all day every fucking day

we had a visit from the one and only santa today! well, not the same one as yesterday but a very impressive santa all the same. also, it's one week until christmas which has me terrified because i thought i'd finished all my shopping until i forced myself to wrap stuff the other day and realised i had a lot left to get. but that's life. so instead of buying things on my lunch, i sat alone in a muddy garden and ate a chocolate bar which was out of this fucking world just fyi. then i went shopping later.

i'm wishing away every day that we're apart

thank you hoops & CJ xo

MONDAY, HERE YOU ARE AGAIN YOU LITTLE BITCH. every cloud mitch, every cloud. i only have one more monday left in work until i'm free for christmas and new year!!!!!!!!!!! a week of freedom never looked so appealing. saying that, a work favourite of mine came back today bearing gifts. and my work cougar even bought me christmas presents! getting excited for the holidays. but that's then and this is now so what better way to kill time? that's right - shopping!

you'll never know friends like these

more boxes

oh god, i woke up ready to blog about 3 tiny things and then everything happened and now i'm a bit flustered and it's late so forgive the mess that is my head/this post. it's always the same - i have no inspiration and get too anxious about posting something shit then i have too many things to talk about and get anxious that my post will be a mess and a rambling stream of consciousness. somewhere deep down, i already know that you guys expect one or the other so that's a silver lining if ever there was one.

if we're brave enough, we won't save it up for later

this brucey did it

i've eaten a whole cake today. not a little cake either. a 6 serving, 132% of my saturated fat kind of cake. as if i can justify that, i haven't eaten much in the past two days and still feel pretty shit. also, i fancied some cake. so i did it and you know what? i DON'T regret it. but there's only so much happiness that layers upon layers of voluptuous sponge, flawless buttercream and decadent marbled cocoa swirls can bring you. the rest comes down to shopping.

it's my dick in a box

oh god what's inside?!?!

okay it's not really my dick in a box but i pride myself on having a lyrically relevant title that relates to that day's content and finding a decent song about parcels, packages or deliveries is hard work and, frankly, after a long ass day it's not the kind of thing i'm too worried about doing. but yes, you've guessed it (/i revealed it) - i got a parcel today and that's basically a good enough reason to write a blog is it not? it'll be really quick i promise. short and sweet, just like me "LOL JK" i'm awkward and bitter whoops.

leave me alone i'm lonely

let's be social, okay? 

apparently humans are social animals. they thrive in social situations and a lot of their happiness is centred around this (i should probably say "we" not them, i'm still a human just about). you mightn't think it but i'm not very social. i cope alright in familiar scenarios but being switched on all the time is bloody draining and i like nothing better than sitting by myself after a long day, blogging about what i've bought before having a bath and reading a book. i'm beginning to understand why i'm 23 and single.

with nothing but your t-shirt on

we did it all! (stolen from k. wright) 

so these past few days have been emo central but i'm more than determined to find something positive in the mess that is my life right now. today, instead of doing my usual "god things are dire" piece, i decided to sort some fun and lovely things to do. namely, shop and eat which, as you'll know, are two of my favourite things of all time. i'm here today to tell you all about t-shirts and burgers and i don't know about you but that sounds like an ideal friday night to me.

i wish all those lazy days were everyday

read on to find out what's inside

and here begins my week off of work! by the looks of things, it's set to be a bloody busy one. i've got lots of exciting things in the pipeline and i started as i meant to go on today. it's late and i'm in quite good spirits after a lovely evening so i'm going to tell you all about my day & future week and we can all have a lovely time then come back in seven days to see if i've done nearly as much as i wanted to. deal? let's just agree not to be disappointed when i inevitably end up laying in bed for 5 of my 7 days off. now that's a deal.

show me what you got

SKULLS also from japan

it's been a "while" since i bought stupidly pointless things and so talking about that is definitely overdue. ebay has been my friend recently and after years of neglecting it, i'm quite content to be back in the driver's seat of my own bankruptcy. amazon is one thing but the bargains that lie hidden in the dark and dreary depths of ebay are something special and that excitement/crippling fear/life threatening fury when you're bidding on shoes that are too small is wonderful.

clear a little space in the corners of my mind

open to name suggestions

nothing beats that "throw everything away" feeling. your head's a mess, your room's a mess, your life's a mess. what do you do? throw that shit away. tidy up. physically cleaning seems to really help sort my head out. if my roomspace is clean and tidy, my thoughts are a lot easier to manage. so naturally, before cleaning everything, i decided to cram my room full of more absolute pointlessness.

time goes by so slowly

much patterns, many monocrhome 

when you're tired, everything is worse. your mood, your face, your ability to cope in social situations. it's an uphill struggle, one which everyone faces from time to time. today was a tiring day. no, it was exhausting. not helped by the one hour of tortured sleep from the night before but WAIT i thought i was meant to be positive? life goes on. check out some shit i bought.

i'm so pumped about some shit from the thrift shop

everybody needs a tiny grater

working in a nice part of bristol means that the charity shops in the surrounding area are full of genuinely nice things. we're talking designer clothes, expensive looking homeware and pricey jewellery. you've got to be on top of your game if you're going to pull out a chanel necklace but your hours of attacking the rails pay off in the end. most of the time anyway.

like a candle in the wind

sorry

i spent £55 in primark yesterday WAIT COME BACK and i managed to blag nearly my own body weight in completely inessential inappropriate indecent items. shopping alone is maybe one of my all time favourite things to do. crack on some embarrassing pop, shut out the world and attack those rails like they're going out of style because they probably are.