leave me alone i'm lonely

let's be social, okay? 

apparently humans are social animals. they thrive in social situations and a lot of their happiness is centred around this (i should probably say "we" not them, i'm still a human just about). you mightn't think it but i'm not very social. i cope alright in familiar scenarios but being switched on all the time is bloody draining and i like nothing better than sitting by myself after a long day, blogging about what i've bought before having a bath and reading a book. i'm beginning to understand why i'm 23 and single.

let's have a little look at "what the fuck are you on about?"

being alone is okay, kids. it's alright if you want to be spend some time with yourself - it's not saying that your own company is better than everyone else's. it might just be that you've filled your small talk quota and one more conversation about the "mad weather" will push you over the edge. calm yourself down, hop on a bus, put your earphones in and sail away with me. or something less creepy.

SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS

the mall might be really busy and immediately a poor choice for a rainy saturday but at least you're out of the house. there might be far too many tweens that are more confident and fashionable than you but that's okay because you've got a beard and they're pretty frightened of that. there'll probably be one too many fat families that have no sense of urgency or compassion but you can sidle past them and into paperchase where a beautiful writing set is waiting for you (still looking for pen pals, desperate now xo)

sitting alone on a sodden bench might be too much so why not chill at your desk and finally write those letters you've been putting off? there are far less people there than the mall and you can have some overdue pensive/reflective time whilst writing your lovely words. to be really honest, i've just woken up from a nap and i'm not entirely sure where i'm going with this post but there's a moral somewhere along the way. god, i hope so.

my forehead wrinkles look like lips

being alone is great if that's what you're into. maybe you're reliant on social interaction to keep you sane or maybe you shy away from it. it's important to have some vague social aspect in your life but openly being an introvert is fine too - you've got a lot of time to recharge and absolutely storm through the next hypothetical conversation you'll have. what i'm trying to say is, whatever you prefer, just own it. let people know if you don't want to hang out but spare their feelings. try "i'm really tired today and could do with some time alone" rather than "the thought of talking about your addiction to breaking bad makes me want to stick pins under my fingernails". pick your battles, internet. 

sorry about everything. this is what happens when you don't spend time with people xo