"let it snow" is blasting out but i won't get in the mood

making this desk festive as fuck

holy fuck, christmas eve is a month away which means it's sort of okay to start getting excited about the festivities now. the lights are on, the trees are up, the songs are being sung and the overpriced christmas items are on the shelves. whereas the magic of christmas used to enthral and excite me, with age i've come to accept that it's simply not as fantastic anymore. people say "OH IT'S AMAZING WHEN YOU HAVE KIDS" but i'm currently womb-less so let's just try and enjoy what we can, eh?

take my breath and never let it go

this is called a "champion bouquet"!!

yeah maybe your long distance boyfriend is sending you flowers but my saint of a mother bought me my very own bouquet today so i think we know who's won this round, don't we? it's been a funny old day - long and exhausting - but not a bad one. not by a long shot. but that doesn't mean i'm prepped and ready to churn out 1000 words on what to do when you're feeling like you want to cut all of your hair off. instead, i'm here today to tell you about a song i think is really good. and that's all.

i've been around the world and i i i

BY DAY

okay so today's lyric title is a bit misleading but i did go back to bath yesterday and i've travelled around bristol town today so that's basically the world, no? either way, i got off of my self-pitying ass and out of my comfort zone to do things that would hopefully make me happy. and you know what? they did. it's been a bittersweet few days but, if i'm focussing on consciously making the effort to be happier, there are a lot of positives i can blatantly see. join me, won't you?

and there's a chapter that i keep on trying to read

what's in the box?

it's been a while since we spoke about reading and how amazing it is so, now that it's long overdue, we're going in hard. i'm talking balls deep. sorry, that was too much. wondering what this magical box is full of? keep reading, all will be revealed. (it will but it's a big anticlimax so i won't think ill of you if you go now. go on, off you go before i change my mind)

i try to say goodbye and i choke

dusky and emotional

it's been a strange kind of day. a belated end to a very manic week. i rarely write about work here (mainly down to the sheer terror that someone will sue me for revealing too much nursery information) but today it feels quite apt. it's not a rant or a confession, more of an epiphany or emotional release? it's not as emo as it sounds i promise*.