and after all this time i'm still into you

getting steamy with this one

turns out i really did go midnight shopping with alice last night. what a trip it was. we ended up with more than enough dross to fill our respective houses but i came away with something else, something special. it was a massive rekindling of love for this girl. i've never fallen out of love with her but last night was different - it was a long overdue emotional catch up and it felt like we both really needed it. one of those nights which really re-affirms your friendship and i'm still feeling warm inside after it.


me and this little beauty have been friends for a really long time. probably the best part of 7/8 years now which, when you think that we're only in our early twenties, is a considerable chunk of our lives. we've been through a lot together and still come out the other side fresh faced and disgustingly close. she's a keeper.

it's obvious but "what the fuck are you so happy about?"

well, her. alice is a dream come true. she's really fucking weird but in an endearing way. she's wise beyond her years but so down to earth (gush gush gush, sorry about this guys) - she juggles a long term relationship, uni, working stupid hours all week, running her own beauty blog WHICH IS WONDERFUL HERE IT IS and so much more. that girl has got it down. but last night really showed she is still human and i loved that. even if see her as one, she isn't a superhero. and it turns out it's okay to admit that.

i beat myself up a lot. too often, definitely. but it's okay to show that, sometimes, you're vulnerable. you can't be switched on 100% of the time, things don't always work out amazingly well and stuff does get tough. tough stuff. and alice is one of those people i can let in and talk to honestly. i knew that anyway but last night was real concrete proof that i want this one to stick around. she's still unknowingly teaching me new things, even after all this time. one thing i took from last night is that sometimes you've just got to get off of your ass and go and do the things you love. consciously make time for them. and remember to cherish them.

but enough about that. god, she really does bring out the emo in me. i bought a lot more awful things yesterday including candles (of course), a plant (why not) and some chicken (!) but there was one diamond in the rough. so "what the fuck have you bought?"

hello petal 

not a patch on the first two but it's completed the trilogy. now comes the anxious wait for #4 to be released and undoubtedly disappoint us all. but until then, fingers crossed.

p.s text your friend and tell them you love them. that'll be nice, won't it?