go shawty, it's your birthday

this is something i made

it's my mum's birthday today! and what a lovely day it is. sunny, happy, friendly etc. we've got some family coming over which will be nice (even if i will spend most of the time hiding in my room away from awkward conversations about how much poo i touch every day and how i'm getting on after my tremendous break up and consequent meltdown) and i get to spoil my favourite lady on earth.

i've written about birthdays before and i really am a huge fan. they're just nice days, spent with people you love, celebrating together, eating far too much and then drinking it all off again. catching up after so long apart is wonderful for a family and i'm genuinely grateful for how wonderful mine are. we're all very close and it's nice to spend some time with them. just some time, not too much. overkill.

so i guess you're wondering "what the fuck are you on about?"

it's been a busy and reflective weekend for me. i didn't really want my blog (weird to say that) to take this direction but i guess we're all due some down time every now and again. i've been feeling really thankful and humbled by things recently. how spectacular my friends are, how caring my family is, how much effort people make. it's been really eye-opening and long overdue: definitely what i needed right now.

there's some scum out there, determined to bring you down to that level. people that love to piss and shit all over your parade, they just aren't happy with themselves unless everyone else is crippingly low. but the light at the end of the tunnel is knowing that there are people out there who care. i was watching a collen ballinger video the other day and her fiancée's nan died whilst they were on holiday. he flew back without her and she was, of course, heartbroken for him. it makes you appreciate what you've got. like she said, go and tell someone that you love them. right now. i'm going to give my mum a fucking huge cuddle.

okay, emo overload. sorry. i promise next week things will be a lot lighter. but until then, have a pensive sunday. try to stop that bad habit. go out and do something new and exciting. be nice for no reason whatsoever. and appreciate what you've got the whole time. things really could be a lot worse.

"what the fuck is that song?"

what a banger. timeless. relevant. classic. iconic. some would say flawless.