i'm in love with a zombie

complete with droplets of rain!

there's a lot going on in this little brain of mine and you know what is a great distraction? yes, shopping. seeing as it was payday recently and it's been far too long since i've bought stupendously irrelevant things, i figured i'd better get back into the habit before i forget how to spend money altogether and end up becoming a real life grown up and saving some. shopping alone is wonderful:  there's no time limit, you can ignore everyone to the sultry sounds of atomic kitten and you don't have anyone talking you out of buying overpriced ps3 games.

ahhhh the welcome return of "what the fuck have you bought?"

no splash = no gash

alongside those rather spectacular turtle pins, i went in search of some aftershave. i've spoken before about the two approaches to decent scents - choose one as your signature and stay loyal or alternate so the smell is fresh and lingers on your skin. i've stayed loyal to diesel for several years now and, after abusing my nostrils with several hundred overpriced tarty colognes, i stuck with my fist of handsomeness. 20% off too, thanks fragrance world!

i went the whole hog DELUXE

the main reason i went out today was to buy "the evil within". truth be told, i'm a bit of a jew when it comes to games and would rather wait a few months for the game to end up in the pre-owned sale than dish out £40. this game couldn't wait. from what i've seen, it looks like a modern day resident evil 4 which, as many of you should know, is a nearly perfect game. i'm two hours in and already i've cut keys from someone's stomach, been chainsawed in half and been chased by a spider woman that exploded from someone's head. my favourite kind of hot mess. 

away from zombies now - "what the fuck are you so happy about?"

sheer delight, thank you xo

i promise to stop mentioning my big emo blog soon but it seems to be the gift that keeps on giving. i'm still being messaged by people about it; some who are suffering and some who are happy to have begun to understand what most people don't talk about. half of the reason i waited so long to post it was because of how my family would take it: we're quite "behind closed doors"/"don't air your dirty laundry on the internet" kind of people. my nan (massive shout out to joyce, i love you so much) is maybe the sweetest woman on this earth. i thought she would have been torn apart knowing that i felt like that. but instead, she gave me a book her sister had given her years ago. it's full of tiny little messages about learning to love yourself and the steps to take to find an inner happiness. it isn't religious drivel, it's not spiritual nonsense. it's just honest, 'from the heart' anecdotes that are hitting home more than i thought they ever would. so thank you joyce, i'm so grateful you've shared this with me and i'm so proud to be part of your family.

I GET SO EMOTIONAL BABY so now "what the fuck is that song?"

seeing as the evil within has allowed my zombie adoration to resurface, let's take a look at zombie based gloom-pop. rather unsurprisingly, there's a lot of dross out there in terms of this subject matter but that's where natalia kills comes in. for those who don't know her, she's a hugely underrated uk popstar. imagine lady gaga's ingenuity, banks' style and rihanna's accessibility. somewhere along the way, you've got our girl natalia. she has the potential to be absolutely fucking huge but things seem to be going wrong along the way. regardless, you know about her now so go and listen to "zombie" on repeat for the next three weeks xo