these are just darks days that we must survive

do you know what? sometimes it's okay to admit that you've taken one step forward and two steps back. life isn't always a straight line, there's fucking loads of twists and turns along the way and we tell ourselves that those experiences shape the people we are. maybe they really do or maybe we're just clinging to any silver lining we can find. either way, i woke up today and felt like i'd taken a hundred steps back. and do you know why? no. me neither. 

give me therapy i'm a walking travesty

childishness and joy

what can i say about today? i'm fast running out of fun things to talk about on this blog and it's becoming very ego-centric. i don't have much else going on for me except managing my own unruly emotions and trying to find too many silver linings. but a colleague bought me some stamps today just because which was adorable and also it's been a while since i posted a song but i've been saving this little gem for a rainy day. it might not be rainy but fuck it i'm posting this all the same just because it's a special kind of amazing. 

you can stand right there if you want but i'm going on

and i mean every word

i just want to take this moment to thank each and every single one of you. yesterday's blog took a lot of balls for me to post and all the anxiety melted away the second it went live. over 400 of you (WHAT) have read that depressing essay (depressay? that might just be my best) and offered up even more words of support and love. some of you have spoken out about your own experiences, some have told me it gets better and some have silently appreciated it. it doesn't matter what was said or done, i'm just glad it was so well received. a heartfelt thank you. 

i won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

lots of shit stuff, probably some good

i've said it before and i'll say it again. it really is the finer things in life that we should be paying more attention to. the bigger picture is probably fucking dreadful, i'm with you on that one, but the tiny ingredients that add up to the catastrophe are much less daunting when you separate them. this should be applied to everything - it's a great coping mechanism if you're having a shite old day. and today has been one of those shite old days so let's take a look at the little things shall we? maybe there's something lovely in there
 (spoiler: there is)